A walk through the wilderness

All of the sudden, I find myself in the wilderness. Mist is taking my sight and I’m wounded by the thorns in the thicket I’m trying to find a way out of. I’m hurt and confused. I don’t understand, I’m pretty sure I’ve made a precise plan before I started this walk. I thought I knew what I was doing and where I’m going. I had everything figured out so perfectly. How on earth did I end up here?

I’m trying to turn left and right, looking for the best way out, but I keep running into dead ends. I’m tired. My feet are sore from walking and my shoes worn out.

Maybe I’ve made a mistake and took a wrong turn. I must have! There is no way something’s wrong with the map. I just want to get out of here, but there is no-one I could turn to…

 

Therefore, behold, I will allure her, bring her into the wilderness and speak kindly to her.

Hosea 2,14

‚Wait…Can you hear that? I think I heard someone say my name…‘

And there He is, kindly speaking to me.

In the wilderness I find God.

‚God, it was You all the time? It wasn’t a wrong choice that brought me here? It was You? You brought me here for a purpose? But I liked my way of living. Everything was fine until You called me into the wilderness. I don’t understand. All this pain and confusion that I went through and now I should still believe in Your goodness? Why?‘

Behold, I will do something new, Now it will spring forth; Will you not be aware of it? I will even make a roadway in the wilderness, rivers in the desert.

Isaiah 43,19

‚Something new? God, I’m broken. Do you see my feet? They’re bleeding, I’m barely alive. I’m exhausted from fighting dragons on my way. I need rest and comfort.‘

Indeed, the LORD will comfort Zion; He will comfort all her waste places and her wilderness He will make like Eden, and her desert like the garden of the LORD; Joy and gladness will be found in her, thanksgiving and sound of a melody.

Isaiah 51,3

There in the wilderness, I find Him. Not angry at me for getting lost. Never judging me for things I’ve done wrong. Just comforting! I find Him with His arms wide open and hands ready to catch my fall.

E D E N

I don’t like loosing sight of the shore and getting lost in the ocean. Waves throwing my ship of life back and forth in every direction.

I like my path to be straight and smooth, always with a clear sight of the destination in front of me. I like to know where I’m headed, how to get there and what signs to look out for. But I can’t hear that voice in the high and beautiful. I don’t need a helper when things are alright. I don’t need faith in a God who gives hope for a better life, when I have everything I could have ever dreamed of. I think I’m strong enough to accomplish everything myself. Why do I need someone to guide me, when I know exactly where my next step will lead me?

Indeed, I need the wilderness to listen.

I will make a covenant of peace with them and eliminate harmful beasts from the land so that they may live securely in the wilderness and sleep in the woods.

Ezekiel 34,25

No longer scared of the wilderness.

‚Change me Lord! Take me into the desert of life. I want to hear Your voice! I want to see my wilderness turn into Eden.‘

I am safe, because the God my Lord is with me. Turning me into a piece of art created by the Master. Making a roadway in the wilderness.

 

 

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